Pessimistic

As I had mentioned below, I am unable to concentrate on any said things. Sorry pals, I am completely boring you people with my pathetic stories. But I am completely in an awful situation now. I want to share my sorrows to some one or other. I had not told about my job insecurity to  any one at my place. I do not have the guts to share the same to them. I do not know how they will react to it. But, as time passes, I am getting very pessimistic.
Though my job is not sacked till this moment, I want to be very cautious and pro active. I have some huge debts, so I need to work hard to get rid of all those. The so called secured job also let me down. I need to switch over my job as soon as possible. Though I get so many mails regarding job openings, only mail sounds like a good Tier 1 company. But reality is something different.  Mostly they were very small companies. I can’t blame anyone for it, this is the thumb rule used by job portals to  opt in email marketing. What all I can do is, to keep my fingers crossed and wait for my D-day.